I haven't been on here in a long time
I haven't had time to be creative
I haven't had time for all my friends who aren't in the immediate proximity
i feel terrible for all of it.

i miss you chloe. i miss nikita. tara. vishnu. rei. i dunno who else i might consider a close friend.

I'll try. but work takes me over. and i forget I'm a person sometimes. most of the time I'm a machine just going.

Over my february break I went into my artistic temperamental mood that hasnt been around since summer.

i drew a lot...gonna post some later
started writing
i'm gonna write a book..
I've already started...
and it'll take me some years
but i'll do it.

i have a lot to say. a lot i dont talk about. and a lot know one really truly knows.

i have so much of a bubbly persona in my daily life that people dont recognize when I want to be alone.
you have to be bubbly and likeable to get anywhere though.

i love working at the hospital. i love the older patients. im sad and happy when they get to go home. they hug me and tell me they love me.

i cried on the bus on saturday...i saw one of the patients from another floor..an old guy ..possibly in his 20s or 30s with downs syndrome
and his mom
and i cried because..suppose something were to happen to her
does he have anyone else?

i miss kiara. she was my dog that passed away. 6 years ago. and i still mourn. i still start crying when i think about her. how much i wish i still had her.

i cant really say more right now. have to wake up n keep the machine going. hopefully i remember to stop to be a little creative..and ill post my newest stuff.
some photography too..
most of my photography ends up on tumblr.


jellybear2610.tumblr.com..if you're so interested (if anyone reads this)